Contribute to my own self.

A dear friend recently told me that our true priorities are shown through our actions, not our words.



Over A year has passed since my last entry and I suddenly have an urge to write again; I'm likely never going to be a very consistent blogger but its clear I've dedication for more highly ranked activities, i.e. drinking beer, running, bargain shopping...

A lot of important things have happened in the last year, more specifically, a lot of important things have happened to me in the last year, however I don’t really feel like spreading butter on my toast so you'll just have to try to eat around the dry corners and maybe later cashew butter and jam.

 

31 came and though the celebration for my birth was the best I can remember, the months following have been some of the most difficult. I've reached an emotional age at which I've a pretty good grasp on the important steps and decisions I should make to be a happy me and valuable member of my community. however, at this age making the "right" decisions and following through requires a lot of behavior modification in order to gain motivation, maintain order, and manage my wild emotions. Some moments I feel like I'm almost "there" and others I feel as though I'm stuck in the bottom of a Well; I try to keep reminding myself that I'll always be searching, changing, fixing and adjusting and whenever I get "there" I'll probably not be here.

Being stuck on the bottom of a well… One definition of the noun “well” is: Source of something proving a free and abundant supply. When life finds me at the bottom of a well it will be the abundant supply of something, let’s hope it’s not darkness... now which rope shall I choose?