Sometimes you just need to kill the victim

This has to be easier than I think it is; I mean seriously, your mom can do it! Effectively getting through life with the respect and happiness of yourself and those around you.

I have been growing my hair out for quite some time now and it isn’t really getting any longer, just curlier. Seriously hair, I NEED to be an effective head banger and your just not cutting for me! I am trying to find the right path; half assed.

Buying things. I recently bought three pairs of glasses online for $33, 22 pairs of underwear for $14, and a new pair of Sauconys for $30 and felt happiness that lasted no longer than the thought of what a great deal I got.

I have tried eating to replace that which I have not got and the long-term results actually have a greater negative impact than doing nothing at all. The weight gain, sugar crashes, cravings, etc…

I have tried drinking which creates a longer lasting artificial happiness, but the “crash” is far worse than that of food. The only thing that cures a hangover is to drink more or running!

So I tried running and its great except when there is an injury. Running has a positive effect on my mood, on my body image, on my food cravings, and my motivation, etc… so besides the current injury, why in the last year has it been so hard to motivate myself to partake in this activity? Why is it so hard for some of us to make the “right” choices?

If I cut off the portion of my hair that was growing during the time that I want to get over, maybe the symbolism will help me along my way! I mean I guess I could try meditation, or therapy, or past life regression, etc, but I really am searching for the easy way out. I think I should spend all of my “real” energy on those parts of my life that still have a positive impact on my well (or not so well) being.