Spirit Animal

Luther clumsily raced through the kitchen, spilled his entire bowl of water, and then slid and fell in it.  At this point I realized that he is my spirit animal.

Pros of running into the desert

Pros of running into the desert

Smell of sweet sage
Cast a lure
Into the vast belly
Of a dry red sea

vibrations of each foot fall
Extract the bewilderment
from my chaotic mind
throw it in the ancient fire
Of lava's black stone

These chirping crickets
the rhythm of my heart
will explode from my body
and join in due time

long "S" in the Ssssand
accompanied by rattle
teach my soul
just anxiousness
In the need to survive

Slippery dry sandstone
incite a dance for the sun
asking for abatement
Of my burgeoning woes

Take this vulnerability
where no love will ever find
during each brief sojourn
make your strength mine

my heart is forever yours

As I ready to retire for the night I decide to make just a couple of notes of importance. I have so many reasons to feel sad, frustrated, and overwhelmed, but even more to make me happy and thankful. I hate that I have to remind myself of all that I have.




I am so thankful that I know and feel love every day of my life; I’ve never, or now know what the absence of love feels like. There is nothing better than the people I love smiling and laughing, and knowing that when I cannot find mine they will find it for me. I don’t think there is a better medicine than a smile and embrace shared with someone you love.



We are an eclectic bunch who have all grown separate ways while gaining and building new families which makes finding time together difficult. However we still do find it, and each time we seem to gain a new member. I do have the best family in the world!

I've been patiently waiting for one of those moments I've seen in movies and television so often, that momnet where all of a sudden everything becomes so clear and what i need to do is so perfectly defined.   though I'm not losing hope that one day this will be a reality, I now just expect that it will be moments before I die.  As I've grown I've slowly overcome obstical after obstical without realizing the lessons until I've looked back, now at 31 I can see the huge difference in what I've become from who I was. 
I can do this all!